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Can't think of a intro for this one.
Can't think of a intro for this one. Right now, I'm... My mom got back from the doctor. She has extremely large blood clot in her lung right now The doctor said at any point in time, the clot could break off, and float into her bloodstream until it hits a vital organ or her brain, cause a major blockage and then she would die from it. The doctor said it could happen at any time, so they immediately gave her some medicine to see if it would start to dissolve the blood clot. In short, it's a ticking time bomb. She could die tomorrow, or next week, or a year from now. The doctor said that hopefully the medicine will work to dissolve the blood clot somewhat, but she could be living with this clot for the rest of her life. They can't go in via surgery to remove the clot as if it breaks off while in surgery, she's done for, so they're opting for medicine to get the job done or at least keep the clot from getting bigger and pray it doesn't move or break off. I don't know how to take this. First I was dealing with the cancer she has now. Now I'm dealing with a blood clot that could kill her at any time. One is a slow death. The other is could be a rapid death and happen at any time. To make matters worse, it's my 's birthday tomorrow, so tonight we're supposed to celebrate it. I'm debating if I should even tell her or not. Plus I'm not good at faking being happy when this is weighing on my head. Yesterday, I had to sit down with my mom, and she hugged me. I felt yesterday that this could be the LAST time I hugged my mom, and it was hard to let her go, so, so hard. I had tears welling in my eyes, but because I didn't want my mom to see me like that, I just held back the tears, and for some reason, I blocked it off in my mind. My mom is alive, not dead, so I just stashed this knowledge in the back of my mind like it was an unimportant fact. But it's not unimportant. Dealing with the mortality of one's parents is so difficult to comprehend. You know death is inevitable, but you just don't want to accept it. They are here now and you want them to live forever. Happy Friday everyone. Make sure to tell your family and loved ones how much you love them today. It might be there last day. You never know. Sorry for being a downer today with this post. |
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Late to the party OOPS I wasnt even invited-drat Seriously, I hope your daughter's birthday was cheerful and that she could spend time with her grandmother. All you can do is be as positive as possible and make each day have something happy in it even when it's dismal. Give your mom an hug from me (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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6/22/2019 5:42 am |
Prayers that the medicine dissolved the clot!! 🙏❤️ Just take is one day at a time. Enjoy your daughters birthday party 🥳
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This is very difficult, and I feel for you. Try and enjoy your daughters birthday,,
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Yay. It's Friday.
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