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Ending?!
Ending?! I have been on this site for more than 4 years. In that time, I have "met" a few people in cyber world and real life. Some of those that I have met in real life have been eye opening experiences, both in good and bad ways. Lately, I am finding that my life, such that it is, is being narrowed down to cyber only. What do I do when I get off from work? I log into the site to see who is here. Same thing when I am not at work. I look at myself and see how pathetic I have become. I yearn for human touch, but will stick to the safety of cyber world, so that I won't get hurt. I find myself looking for excuses not to meet in person, or finding reasons why I don't like a person. What makes this worse is that I know who I am and what I want, but I am not overly happy about the person I have become. I am dependent upon people I will never meet and those that I have met (and liked) are disappearing at an alarming rate. So, with this being said, I think that my time here needs to be minimal. I need to find someone for me that is beyond a dick picture or the standard "I want to fuck you's". Today, at some point, I felt a part of myself die. And, upon further inspection, I have been dying for a while. I live vicariously through others rather than living for myself. This hollow feeling seems to grow with each passing moment and what is left of me is getting smaller by the minute. To those of you who have been my rock, my shelter, my friends, I will see you around. I will not leave completely, but I have to find some sort of balance. I know you will understand. Thank you all. |
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Everybody needs a little time away on occasion. The friendships you have made here are real. Some will last forever. Know that regardless of whether or not you someday meet some of the online silly chat peoples that you are appreciated, admired, adored, liked, lusted and cared about. If ever you need a friendly ear know I'm here for you XOXOX
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A post like this takes a little thought. I hear and understand the thoughts you are going through. As sadly as it is that it would mean less chatting with you, I agree with you. You have to have a balance. You know what you want Bats and you will find it I will miss our chats but I will look forward to seeing you occasionally. I'll send you some words of encouragement. It has always been a pleasure. Take care and I look forward to the next chat my friend.
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very heartfelt, my dear friend, I feel your pain and unhappiness.I'm pretty much in the same ballpark as you. Take a break and re-evaluate yourself, it will do you good.I'll be one of the many who will miss your presence.You always know where to reach me. Big hugs to you my friend and good luck..
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9/6/2014 9:09 pm |
good decision....enjoy your RL...am only here @ weekends take care
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9/6/2014 8:54 pm |
you've got my support pretty lady, no matter what! you'll be missed for sure!
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