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New Things  

Jadzia11 55F
145 posts
5/26/2021 5:10 pm
New Things


Recently I have tried something new. I am not inexperienced in some aspects of alternative sexual lifestyle, but I do not now everything there is know either.

Having recently met someone who has introduced me something new, I am finding I am having questions about myself and what I have learned.

Things I do know about myself, I tend be more the submissive side. I have tried out the Domme role and it was a great learning experience but yes I am more submissive than switch and/or Domme. I can step into the role but it is not something I want to do or feel completely comfortable in.

I have also had experience with a threesome. MFM I am not into women at . Tried that once many many years ago and I was not into it at . That ended abruptly and I have absolutely no desire try it again. The mere thought turns me off.

What I had not tried before was more than a threesome. Part of the reason being never been involved with anyone who wanted try something like that and partly because it was not something I thought I would ever want try. There are certain social stigmatisms about<b> group sex. </font></b>I have experienced my own judgements there as well.

I am not going into details of what transpired, but I was a willing participant and although I enjoyed the event. I am not sure how I feel about it now. It was not the event itself, but my participation in it. It comes back to my own judgements.

The person I attended with has asked me to attend another such type of event and here is where I find myself in a dilemma. Part of me is VERY excited about it, but part of me is like NOPE never again. It honestly comes down to my personal opinion of myself for being a participant in this type of event.

I am struggling with how it made me feel in the moment and how it made me feel the next day. They are VERY different feelings and therein stands my internal conflict.

I thought I could say I knew myself pretty well up until this happened. I find myself questioning some of my previous preconceptions. Now I am not sure and I really need to figure this out. I know it is a growing experience, but as we all know, growing up can be painful and the end result is not always a perfect finish.

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