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Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Generalized Anxiety Disorder It keeps me up at night, I fall asleep, but never for very long. It doesn't allow my mind to shut off. I focus on small incidents that I feel didn't go as planned and replay the scenario in my mind over and over again. It isolates me. I feel like everyone is judging me, mostly because I am always judging myself. On my bad days, I have difficulty making even the smallest of decisions without an immeasurable amount of stress. It is exhausting. Overthinking every decision, every conversation, every action, every minute of the day. And, I deal with this every day. Most of the people who know me don't know I have these struggles. I do a great job of pretending. Having worked in management positions most of my adult life, I've gotten pretty good at faking confidence when I sometimes feel inferior. I stand behind knowledge and use it as a shield when I have to face a situation that causes me anxiety. Knowledge is something that makes me feel secure. Today was a high anxiety day for me, I'm not really certain why. It doesn't always have a trigger, sometimes it just is. When I got home from work, I yelled at my because the apartment was a wreck, and spent the next hour cleaning that up, even though my feet hurt and I was starving. Now I can't sleep, and I keep replaying that scene over and over in my mind, feeling absolutely terrible about it. My rational mind knows I shouldn't. They've long since forgotten I was mad when I first got home and it's not like I made them help me. My continued to game with his friends on his Xbox and my and I watched tv together on the couch until bed time. I just can't turn it off. |
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i have bouts with anxiety sometimes, often it is work related or caused by a family situation. , Ativan takes the edge off, but I dont want to live on that, I usually go to sleep with my TV on, it keeps me from thinking, and when I am tired I will fall asleep, that may help you. When there is a problem at work often i cant do other ttasks until that problem is resolved.. Family or personal problems i am able to compartmentalize when working.. I do feel for you..
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