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When you found love you do not want to go back  

BiSussi 62F
728 posts
1/7/2022 7:02 am

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1/17/2022 3:35 pm

When you found love you do not want to go back

Reflection of the past, is always part of Xmas and New Year for me, it was no different this year. Thinking all the way back to my childhood, my age, my first boyfriend, first sexual experience, first job and the day I figured out what true love is.

They say Once you go black you never go back , it doesnt hold true for me, but once you make love you never want to go back to SEX. This phrase, those words once you make love you never want to go back to SEX apply to me, regardless of the skin color or the penis size. When I love a man, it does not matter if he is 5 inches or 15 inches, if he lasts 2 minutes or 20 minutes, I am in heaven when he is in me

No doubt, my first boyfriend was not love, it was infatuation, which at that time was not clear to me, in my mind it was love, I wanted to be with him every minute, he was Gods gift to me. Every kiss was electrifying, just thinking about him made my nipples get hard and my panties wet. When I went black, it was not his skin color, his penis size, he was neglected by his wife he claimed, he loved me he said and yes, I was in love with him. It was not infatuation!

His sweet words, his hugs, his kisses made me melt away. No question, I felt bad for him for being neglected by his wife, I had deep feelings for him, and yes I was in love with him. However, I didnt want to give myself away to a married man, wanted to wait until they separated. Without question, I would have married him, once he is free again. Then came the ball game, the alcohol, my desire to be one with him was overwhelming, I opened up for him. It was not a great experience at all; he became and still is the worst men I was with in my life. It took years for me to trust a black man again and yes, I did fall in love with a few black men years later. BlackKing on here was one of them, he left and then I lost my phone, lost his number and K. oh yes, I wish he would have stayed in Cali, but we always meet-up when he is in town.

It is Max, who troubles me today, once you have been with him, you want to go back again and again for more. Needless to say, I dont know even one woman who he didnt take to heaven and kept her there for hours, if not for days. Every time he ejaculated, I exploded Massive, intensive orgasms, one after another, it is a Max guaranty. He moved out late last year, I miss him so much. His sense of humor, his sweet heart, his love, skin, muscle, tongue, fingers and about 6 inch rock hard \8 made him special Am I addicted or just truly in love?

He truly loves me and I love him, if it would be addiction, I would not understand why he moved on, would nott understand his desire to have soon. All that said, it is still hard for me to know that he is gone, at least for now, he has a special place in my heart and deep down I still hope he is coming back to visit, to please me, again and again.

Some on are looking for SEX, I for sure do not look for sex on, I want to find love, I want to be in love with the man/men I am with, even on

Oh yes, when I find love all I can think about isOVER 30 YEARS of making love without condoms and not once ended up with an STD risk management & being selective, believing in LOVE & not F@&# every nice looking and sounding man does pay off

I love pussies and adore nice dicks

BiSussi 62F
1405 posts
1/7/2022 7:04 am

There is the saying Once you go black you never go back is it really true? It does not apply to me at all, in my case it is all about love and sex. After I have been blacked, I stayed away from \8b for a long time. Sweet guys like BlackKing and Mr. K. made it possible to fall in love with African-American men again. How does it work for you or if you are a man for your girlfriend/wife? Have you been or if you are a man, has your SO been blacktized?

I love pussies and adore nice dicks

GInaMarie0 35F
1 post
1/7/2022 8:44 am

I am in love with your post. Can definitely relate!

citizen4722 64M  
74582 posts
1/7/2022 9:16 am

Yes, I have been in love before and it really does feel different. Even euphoric at times.

SilverFoxMark66 68M
286 posts
1/7/2022 10:47 am

Good post 'tho there is fine & very movable line between infatuation & true love IMHO e.g. infatuation will often fade or wear off especially when things go wrong i.e. one's expectations are compromised, & true love rarely does as it allows you to compromise with your SO's faults & love them for themselves; true love tends to be more feasible when you are (much) more comfortable with your self, IMHO; just my 2pennorth & lots more examples on Demartini's Youtubes ref "relationships" & "love", thanks for sharing & good luck in your search for true love, (& making love of course),; big warm horny hugs from London, UK, Mark x

leefury7 72M

1/7/2022 10:51 am

I think I have only ever be truly in love once in my life. She was a petite little girl from Guadalajara who had move up just a few years before. I might have posted a blog on her or at least referenced the point that I am still not sure that the old bromide, *Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all* is, in fact, a true statement. She was absolutely, unequivocally the best thing that ever happened to me in this life time. Obviously, the love of my life. Five glorious years. Then called away to war and she wasn't there when I came home. Some of us die on the battle field but make the mistake of coming home alive. It took me all of forty years for the pining to become a rare event. That girl that I loved so much no longer lives. She is someone else. now.

Uniformitarianism is a myth.

jajo696 67F
4287 posts
1/7/2022 11:26 am

I agree....all that external stuff need not matter when one is truly in love. That in itself can enhance any other thing that may be lacking. You work on it ....together ~

Wantolder4funnow 34M
23 posts
1/7/2022 12:14 pm

That is so true!

leefury7 72M

1/7/2022 6:30 pm

You are right. Making love is so superior to having sex (f*cking) that really it is apples and oranges. The later surely grants momentary pleasure. The former grants the eternal. Many will not understand the reality.

author51 59F  
130010 posts
1/7/2022 11:25 pm

    Quoting leefury7:
    You are right. Making love is so superior to having sex (f*cking) that really it is apples and oranges. The later surely grants momentary pleasure. The former grants the eternal. Many will not understand the reality.
Words of wisdom as Making Love and Sex are totally different when in a relationship with a person you are in love with.. I hope things works out for you in one way or the other Hun...xoxo

MelbLife 57M
313 posts
1/16/2022 5:39 am

Sex is fire
Sex is volcanos
And with added intimacy
Sex can be loving
The fire shared
The volcanoes harnessed
The sex transmuted as you make love.

NoTell101 61M
53 posts
1/17/2022 1:33 pm

I feel your pain.

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