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Sensual Dreamscape
My thoughts, dreams, stories and just general day to day .
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A Prefix to Me
Posted:Sep 28, 2021 8:41 am
Last Updated:Sep 29, 2021 10:07 pm

As I am repacking my laptop, getting ready to again do this insane journey because my very life depends on , or so they tell me. I do want say that even when I am ill, I am still very much all woman and very sexual. I am still every bit the woman I prottray, with the sensuality and sexuality.

It does take a special man understand that I do have some medical issues. That sometimes we have postpone a potential date. But oh honey trust me, when I am well I so make up for . I will say one thing about myself, I do know that I am one hell of a lover, fwb, beneficial friend however you wish term .

I am kind, attentive, enthusiastic, I give my all and then some. I am that loving woman and that naughty for the right fwb. I make sure that you have just as good of a time as I do.

So please never discount anyone has some medical issues. I have had men have been very unkind about . I them , and they werent worth my time anyway.

Okay my firends, time shit you down and pack you up until I am in my abode at the hospital.


And it continues
Posted:Sep 28, 2021 8:08 am
Last Updated:Sep 29, 2021 10:14 pm

So apparently I am back to square one on this medical saga. My doctors say they can ot do a direct admit, and it would take two weeks to set up home health care so I could do the iv antibiotics here at home. So Here is a little bit I need to go back to the ER and go through that very long process of 8+ hours to be admitted.

There has to be a better way but these insurance companies dont care about us at all. There were so many people in the er yesterday, alot of elderly too. We really need a reform, and it shouldnt be up to our doctors to have to jump through these insane hoopes that insurance demands.

Was told the infedtion is very bad, quote "minute by minute" bad. Funny thing is I do not feel real bad. run down yes, some pain, yes. But overall I am fine.

I will be blogging from the room....................

Thank you to all my true friends. Times like this you see who really cares, and who is just in this for themselves.

To and From Day
Posted:Sep 27, 2021 9:59 pm
Last Updated:Sep 29, 2021 10:17 pm

My day was crazy.
Early doctor appt with primary doctor who thought I was doing fine, other then a infection. So we had breakfast, went for a drive. Get home and the Hema-oncology call and want me to go to the er to be admitted. I thought it was going to be a direct admit. The reason they said I had to be admitted is that I am now Antibiotic resistant to all oral medications so I need IV antibiotics. Get to the hospital and they have no orders so has to be processed through the er. 4 hours later still hadn't been seen, asked if they were going to be able to process me tonight so I could start therapy. They said at least another 4 hours before I would be seen by a doctor. And they thought it would be best if I left for the night and then got my doctor to do a direct admission.

What a fucking joke, but okay. I can turn sepsis at any moment, no worries. Grrrr But still smiling.

I am still in good spirits, this is what I am used to. At any time I can become sick, often without realizing it myself because I do not usually have any symptoms until I am very ill.

Teaches you to embrace each day and squeeze every drop of happiness out of it.

Also teaches you who really cares about you and who does not.

Keep Dancing,
Sexercise Part 1
Posted:Sep 26, 2021 11:21 pm
Last Updated:Dec 3, 2022 5:6 pm

I lay you down, gently if you are precious cargo. you are indeed. Been waiting do this you night long. Now thatt dinner is over with, we strolled through a park loving the lights. Hand in hand stealing little kisses from each other. Letting that desire build higher and higher night long.

We get the hotel room a nice suite. Even you have thought of everything. A small fruit basket, waters, and roses all sititng and ready for enjoy.

I set my bag down and you help off with my wrap. You draw into your arms, looking down at . You start lean down kiss , and I close my eyes. I have been wainting this just much you have night long. Well for longer then that if you and I are honest. Months you have slowly shown more of yourself and becoming more bold.

The kiss is long,passion and just perfect. You pull away,and I say No. I grab ahold of your chin and drawn you in for another even deeper lingering kiss. Thsi kind of stumps you for a moment. I can tell you are stating get more and moreexcited. Of course the bulge in thefron of your dress slacks gives you away ten fold.

I sit down on the bed, and you hand a cold bottle of water. I thnk you and drink about half of it, knowing it is so important stay well hydrated during sex-ercise. .........................
Ins and Outs of a Large Woman's Sexuality
Posted:Sep 26, 2021 8:59 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2021 10:36 pm
Being a large woman, I want to invite you into some insight of what it is like to be with a woman of size.

First off, we can still move. Yes there is more to move, but believe me we are still flexible.

We are super soft, like your favorite pillow. Go ahead and lay your tired head right down on my breasts. Feel my arms around you and rest assured that you are cared for.

We can take more then skinner women. WE are not going to break, and we can still do amny different positions.

Generally we are passionate, sex as hell, know what we want. We should be treated just like any other woman. Bit of romantic pose, a flower given when meeting. WEar some nice cologne because that is a huge turn on for me. Treat me with dignity and respect.

Never say that you close your eyes and pretend I am someone else. If you cant handle me the way I am, there is the door. WE are all made differently and have our likes and dislikes. I generally do not find short men attractive. Not that I would refuse to go with a short stature man. Sometimes though men seem to think they can mistreat us big girls. That we are more eager to be with you, and that gives you license to be a prick. It does not and remember because I am a big girl, I will only put up with so much.

You never know what you are missing unless you give it a try. You might find that you really love being with a large woman.

Dancing With No Care
Posted:Sep 26, 2021 8:50 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2021 10:38 pm
Woke up to see that I have 40 watchers now on this blog. Thank you!!!

This is the place where I can just be myself. Not anyone's wife, mother, grandmother, but just my true sexual self. And that feels so good, to just present myself. In true body and soul, and sexual energies.

You all help me retain my true self, even amiss this medical cauldron. I am tired of seeing medical doctors, and having tests run. Yet I know we are so lucky in this country and even the state I live in for all the medical services. But I would love to just stop doing all of it and pretend that everything is fine. I want to not think about any of it and just play, nd play sexually as much as I can before surgeries, etc.

My friends, you all make me feel like dancing with how supportive you have been. So many messages, many of you reaching out in true friendship, concerned for me. I am no tused to that, and it feels so nice. I would love to some day be able to meet you all, share in a meal and just visit. As we age, and with Covid it has been so hard to get out and make friends. Moving right in the middle of this all, in a new area and having to stay restricted for the longest time, really made me rather depressed.

I am renewed today, excited. I know what ever they find, I will overcome and carry on like the bad ass bitch I am. I actually am pretty tough, been thru some hard stuff in my life, but I think most of us have been. I al thankful for everything I have overcome, made me a stronger person. Also made me even more of a loving person, and when it is time to have FWB time, I even enjoy that on a deeper level. What better experience then two friends enjoying some private sexual exercises.

I do hope y'all have a wonderful day today. Think naughty thoughts, and keep being awesome

Orgasmic Mini Vacation
Posted:Sep 26, 2021 1:42 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2021 12:02 pm
Hello, here we are again.

Sotis you have dig down deep keep you sexual life valid. Life will hand you things that make you feel anything but sexy, that is a given. I find that is when if you are lucky you will have a FWB that will help you keep your sex going.

Even the delicious flirting is wonderful and so much fun. Being ld just what that person would love do you, and even describing that act you. Knowing that you will be seeing them in not o long helps keep that sexual energy going.

For sex has always been important. Sotis I wish it wasn't so important . I know people like my husband, it is just not a priority them. it is, the uching, feeling, tasting, orgasmic bliss. of what we were given enjoy. I also use my ti away with a FWB as a reprieve from my every day life. It is like a mini erotic vacation, because genery I will spend the night unless we are finished in daylight hours. I just hate drive in the dark if I can help it.

So tell , how do you keep your sexual energy going?

Oh Do We DARE?
Posted:Sep 25, 2021 10:01 am
Last Updated:Dec 3, 2022 5:6 pm

Doing my best impersonation of Mrs. Doubt fire : "Well Hello".

Hey I tried right. I am trusting that everyone is well, and reasonably happy on this beautiful Saturday. It is gorgeous today indeed.

I plan on hanging here in my room some. Working on a painting, and then helping make some homemade pizza. Enjoying This weather right now so much, each time I take my .

Sorry there was no post last night, I wrote one but then a wrong button and "Poof" it was gone. By then I was too tired and frustrated to redo it. I was watching some cams last night, I really enjoy the couple ones. One couple had a friend over. Lucky woman was having a three some, I envy her.

I would love to have a mfm again someday. Problem is getting two fwb to have the same availble time, but oh man. I was watching that cam last night, and really enjoying all the attention she was getting.I started masturbating myself, but none of my toys wanted to cooperate it seems. That or I have a faulty multiplug and that is why fairly new toys were still dead.

Sigh so nothing real interesting, some of my tests have come back and the numbers overall were not good. I have another doctor appointment Monday so we shall see. I feel fine, and would still love to be in the arms of a handsome man. Making each other feel awesome and orgasms exploding everywhere.

So what are your plans this weekend?

In A Perfect World
Posted:Sep 24, 2021 3:26 am
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2021 10:56 pm
Closing my eyes, I picture this perfect world. Or at least my perfect world, where everyone cares about each other. There are never quarrels, and everyone's feeling happy. There would be random dancing in the streets and lovers would walk hand in hand. Embracing so tightly there is no space leave, their bodies curving into each other.

Right now I feel a overwhelming urge to create. With plaster and canvas, mixing the two mediums. Letting my energy go into each piece, not really caring if anyone else finds my work pleasing. I feel the need to leave pieces of my in each piece. I want decades later after I am no longer in this vessel that people will still be able to reflect and know that I did exist. If for nothing more then to make you stop and appreciate the day for its beauty.

I want to reach out and let each one of you know that take the time to read my blogs how much I appreciate it. It is often my way of connecting, a safe way for me anyway. Here I can express the sexual side of me and the rather raw side when it is safe to do so. The friendships I have formed just through these blogs is precious.

Well seize the day please,

Creeky Thanks
Posted:Sep 23, 2021 11:36 pm
Last Updated:Sep 24, 2021 10:51 pm

Well hello there,

First I want to thank my friends who contacted me through here, email, and text. Meant to much and I was moved. When I left the very long Hema-oncology Clinic today, my phone had many of you all asking how I was and what did they find out, etc. Pretty incredible and again I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

We all wish our bodies were like they were when we were in our 20's. That things didn't ache, creak, and pop. That we could jump out of bed and not have to worry about if we took meds, etc.
By this time, we have come to realize that this is what it is. Either learn to accept yourself and others, or become bitter old people/ Always room for improvement of course, but that goes without saying.

And sexually, oh yes there is that. I think by now we have all come to realized that basically we are drying up. And not in the way we want. Perhaps our orgasmic load is not what it used to be. I used to squirt, not sure I can anymore. I used to get so wet, that I would be embarrassed. Now lube is my new best friend. It takes longer for me to have a true orgasm. The smaller ones, no they come pretty fast and easy.

Hair might be thinning, or moving to other places. Seems most everything is sliding south. WE bury and say goodbye to dear family and friends too.

But there is still something so beautiful about each day. EAch kiss, being held, and yes even being made love too. That is one of my biggest wishes, to truly be made love too, slow tenderness. That would be such a wonderful thing to me.

What made you appreciate today?

Horizontal Dance of Chance
Posted:Sep 23, 2021 1:14 am
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2021 7:46 pm
We both do this delicious dance of teasing each other.
Telling what we would like to do to each other.
Oh if these hands could reach through the screen
And stroke your ...... and then I would.........

Do we dare, entice each other
Night after night, staying up for hours
licking my lips, wanting to savor you
Again and again like a perfectly ripe pear.

Let thy juices escape my mouth
Running from the moistened corners,
Dribbling down my chin,
All you see is my smile and twinkle in my eyes.

We have promised each other nothing
other then honesty, and friendship
Being Lovers when we see each other,
Celebrating the delight of entanglement.
No Care , No Need,
Posted:Sep 22, 2021 2:45 pm
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2021 7:49 pm

So I have encountered a individual who basically demands that you send them pictures. When you say no, then it is met with issues.

Don't even get me started with being truthful about some medical issues I am going through. That is met with running hot and cold, well forgive me for needing to be concerned with many tests and doctor visits. Nothing that was my doing. So basically being view as a piece of ass, and if you do not comply you are of no use.

Forget being friends, caring about a friend, the way I would be concerned about any firend and their well being. I am a person, who yes happens to be going through alot of medical challenges. But I am very real, nothing phony about me at all.

Their loss, I do not put up with being treated this way ever.

A Few Thoughts From Me
Posted:Sep 21, 2021 9:34 pm
Last Updated:Sep 23, 2021 7:50 pm
Sitting here tonight, so many things come to my mind.

Was a overall good day, weather was beautiful. It rained and then the frogs were all in chorus, singing about the rain and bugs most likely.

One of the things I wanted to write about it how wonderful it felt to be held. Cradled, feeling his fingers lightly stroking my skin. The way he would cup my face, look into my eyes and kiss me. Those kisses were so magical, plentiful, delightful. Holding hands , fingers entwined.

But being held, listened too, and listening to him. Sharing stories about our life, and embracing the friendship. To feel so desired, and cherished by a man who really cares for my overall well being. Not just a object, but a full woman. Accepted just as I am.

Really meant so much to me, that time taken to reach out and be a true friend. Yes we enjoyed each other benefits fully, time and time again. But it was even more then that. Watching him sleep, being spooned, being woken up because he wanted to have one last time before we both had to leave.
No false promises made, or unrealistic expectations assumed. Knowing that we are dear friends who will enjoy each other when we are able.

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