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Clarity and Realizations  

EroticMusings2 58F  
1590 posts
1/14/2022 4:27 am
Clarity and Realizations

I really do appreciate that I haven't lost any watchers in this blog. I pretty sure that I would, so maybe there is hope. I just to connect with people on a friendship level. Get to know them as a person, maybe be that friendly face that they know they can talk to when the world at large seems to cold and impersonal.

Taking this big step back from physically being with anyone, has given me much<b> mental </font></b>and emotional clarity. I think I am just not geared for the FWB NSA, that it seems most on here . And I can see why they would and I tried very hard to do that. Now years ago when I in my mid 30's I had no problem with this very concept. And man did I have some fun. But as I have aged of course I have slowed down. In fighting my own helath challenges and being my husbands caretaker, it takes its toll. With no family to offer a hand, or just even be supportive it gets hard sometimes. You feel like there is no one to turn too, to give you a hug, share a cup of coffee and just talk to you. So that might be why perhaps that know I find myself wanting a connection with people. I need and want friends, locally I would love to make friends with other artists, and crafters as well. The bitch of that is with Covid it stops such things really. Or at least I don't feel it is safe with the new surges.

Frankly too I will admit, there are some very mean men on here. I have oped messages even with a man saying "Go eat shit>" Never had spoken with him at all. I have had a few men pose as wanting to be my BFF, and that they really care. When that is not the case by their actions and the things they say especially once I ended things. Or you think you connect with a man, chatting some night. Then you don't hear from his, and months later he comes strolling over by what ever communication means you have. It feels like I the lsat option, so everything else with whoever did not work out so maybe i will have do. I am not anyone's last option, trust me I am a very good woman. There have been a couple of men that I thought I really good friends with, that became just too busy to speak with me. Not even a back when I ask how they are doing and loved ones. Then all the sudden me because they are turned on by my writings. Not a simple inquiry to how I have been or anything.

Many men get mad because I don't cyber or do phone sex. Nothing wrong with it, just isn't for me I tried it a few times years ago. I can see where especially right now it is a safer option. And some men come at you thinking you are just supposed to immediately talk to them about sex. Now I am not stupid, you are stroking it and getting off while we chat. But I am not a piece, I am a person with feelings. I have alot more value than just to get you off. Again nothing wrong with it, just isnt me.

I am tender heart by nature, always have been. I get my feelings hurt, and I cant help it. I to be cared about, asked how my day is going. A two-way street of friendship, because the rest I am worn out from trying to do. I am a great friend and I really do care. And yes I know this is a sex site but part of the title says friend too. I feel that I have as much right as anyone to be on here in any context.

So I will still be on here to chat, watch a few of the couples cams and of course write. Celebrate each day like it's your last and be safe my friends.

Maybe I should put that my kink is being treated like a woman with feelings and value. ?


*Creative Outlets of All Forms thru Me*

Paulxx001 65M  
22616 posts
1/14/2022 5:41 am

Well, you can celebrate a brand new year
.. again.
It's Cristian Orthodox ☦ New Year's Day.
Happy New year... to fresh starts and a to a prosperous and healthy one.

EnigmaInitiative 54F
6054 posts
1/14/2022 7:44 am

It can be so tough when people treat you as though you have no feelings. As a fellow tender hearted woman who gets her feelings hurt often, I wish I could reach out through the miles and give you a hug.

I've changed my cupid settings to leave off all men, and my inbox has been blissfully silent since.

I know things are tough with your health and your husband, hang in there. Know there are those of us who are interested in you as friends and are reading your blogs.

This week's HNW: Pink/Hearts (Or Chocolate) is available on the other side.

spunkycumfun 62M/67F  
41171 posts
1/14/2022 8:07 am

Not losing any followers is a testament to your blog.

sexyldy1000 67F  
9607 posts
1/14/2022 5:48 pm

Online it can be difficult when rude, unsolicited comments are received from random strangers. I used to respond, now I block, delete and forget about it.

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