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That January.
Posted:May 18, 2019 5:12 am
Last Updated:May 19, 2019 2:10 am
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It was in my mind today…. Looking back to January. People said that break up is common, it happen to everyone, not a big deal. yes, I know that it happen to everyone, but no one really ever taught me how to deal with it. In my 37 years of my life, believe me or not, I only had 2 men that I really called my boyfriend, that I brought home and let the world knows. Yeah, I always avoid relationship. So fucking afraid of it. hate it even. Grew up from a broken family, my parents never gave me and my sister a good role model. I always love my single life, I always tell the world that it needs someone so fucking amazing to change that. When I met him, he really convince me for 9 years that he will be my last one. I was wrong.

It’s been 5 months…I’m still down here in the floor picking up the pieces of my broken heart. i might be smiling or looks ok, but it’s a bloody mess inside.
I literally cut everyone out of my life. My parents, my best friends, colleagues. I know everyone said that you shouldn’t be alone. But thats what I need. sat in the corner of my dark room. my sister was the only one that talk to me for months. I’m literally disappear.

That my little sis of mine… I owe her my life, I owe her everything. She was there with me every single of the hour…and she's not even in the same country with me. Can you imagine how hard that was…..but she was there…still is!
I called her every single day crying and literally screaming my guts out….and she is always there!

Until today, when I writing this at this very moment, I haven’t reached out to anyone…im still alone, took months before I finally got a little better…means that at least im not crying everyday anymore and I finally ate. I signed up back here and I got better even faster. I’m closer to people in TSDates (yeah…all of you that reading this!!) more than anyone else at the moment and to tell you the truth I love it. It’s like I’m in a different world with different me. I don’t want to even remember the old me.

Yeah, people said that it happen to everyone, it’s a common love story, it’s just another break ups. I get it, but when you’re in that situation, you’ll feel all those feeling I felt, it never get any easier…it’s so bad this time because of how many people involves in our lives… families, friends, neighbours, fuck, I even know his parents’ neighbours’ brown Labrador dog named Tess, which I adore. so its not breaking up with him but its breaking up our world.

I think I just need a little more time, to sort out my life. To put it all together again. Got an offer to move to other country but I’m still indecisive..
it still hurts… I think it will be for a while, and I accept that. I just need to keep moving… I haven’t even see the light’s at the end of the tunnel yet…

I got one message from him today, asking how am I doing.

I don’t cry anymore, it’s been months and months where I’m trying so fucking hard to be able to move one step ahead dragging my feet. Like literally one step!

When I got the message, I’m about to throw my fucking phone to the wall, but I remember that I don’t have spare phone … so I deleted the message instead.

Baby step.
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another B&W picture...
Posted:May 15, 2019 2:58 pm
Last Updated:May 19, 2019 2:11 am
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good enough to tease?

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too young?
Posted:May 13, 2019 6:45 am
Last Updated:May 16, 2019 4:37 pm
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So I got invited to small party by my friend. she then introduced me to this hot guy (really really hot) which is her younger brother. she said he has crush on me for sometime. cool. he's totally my type..good dancer, looks really naughty...and did I mention hot? lol. we just hit it off in the dance floor all night. I'm thinking..this is great! it was really great...until we got to talk in between dancing. and I found out that he was 23 years old. I was like....wtf? 14 years younger than me??? I mean fourteennnnn years???? even my younger sister still much older than him lol....

no, I didn't freaked out...but I'm surprised. we keep partying all night but it stop there. let him know that I'm not into dating or whatsoever at the moment.he said age is just a number and he doesn't mind at all.... but I can't get that 14 years gap out of my head.

I got home and it got me thinking.... I never been with a much younger men before... don't plan to start either lol...I know he's already at the legal age but it just feels not right for me. I've been with a man maybe only couple of years younger...not even 10 years younger and to be honest....not a really fun encounter.
so met him last night and knew his age kinda kill the feeling of having sex with him lol. am I weird? I do love being with older men...I mean not that much older...not more than 10 years is perfect.

so I wonder...how much younger is too young? I just can't do it even though I'm attracted to him lol..
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Oh..so Horny...
Posted:May 9, 2019 4:06 pm
Last Updated:May 13, 2019 6:46 am
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I was at work today and feeling so horny..not really a nice feeling to be honest, and it happened so often. im working but my mind was like a porn movie where scene by scene keep popping up all the times. Tried everything to distract my mind..but a minute later it popping up again. sooo annoying and made me cranky.
So normally what I did:
- play with myself…check (I did play in the bathroom at work)
- Keep myself busy…check
- Eating dark chocolate (normally this helps)..check

But in bad days…,like today, it drives crazy. It’s like my body asking me to be fed, like its so hungry and send signal to my brain that it needs its food. Really shit.
I knew I should’ve working as a porn star lol… not hot enough unfortunately haha.

What I really really want now is a cock everywhere inside of me …for a long long time…my mind was so dirty it can connect everything I saw with sex… from table, my laptop, phone charger, drinking bottle…everything.
Lol..is this normal? Sometimes I think I should be born as a man..but is it true what they said that men think about sex all the time??

When im horny, I can look at any guy in the eye and I will know how he will act or react in bed. I mean I don’t know but I can imagine it from the way they looked me or their body language lol… not joking. Made things worse actually cuz when it’s my type of guys then I’ll be just drooling over them and I'll have to slap myself lol.
If I can have my way, I really would love to be able to have sex least twice a day…you know, like morning sex then maybe afternoon or evening sex.. thats gonna make my body stop making me crazy I think.
Is this normal to wanting sex all the time? cuz im pretty sure none of my girls friends have this huge sex drives. Maybe I gotta admit myself to rehab…

anyway..I think im kinda babbling too much lol. But this is why I love to write here. I just need to unload all the shits from my crazy mind and what I like about the people here (yeah, all of you that reading this!) is that no matter how crazy it is, it’ll never be too crazy for you guys am I right? (I think a short blog about a horny girl is not crazy at all haha)

Now, about my main subject... horny.. lol yeah I feel better now, writing this distract my mind for quite some time. It’s calm in the inside at the moment…thank fuck, the monster’s sleeping.

I’ll still gonna grab some dark chocolate though
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Blow job...
Posted:May 6, 2019 10:28 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2019 2:50 am
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I dont know what’s about cock that fascinates . But it always does.
I love to be down there
I have this weird exciting feeling whenever I see it
I love to see when its soft and sleeping..
and then sometimes when I just look at it, it gets little harder,
I love when I touch it and it gets a bit bigger.
I won’t suck it straight away, I love to play it first
Maybe lick the top…and keep licking it until it’s all wet
and gets bigger and harder…
And I will keep licking it until I reach the balls…
I would love to put it gently into my mouth…
And maybe if he likes it, I will lick even more down there till the asshole..
I love to circle my tongue there
Tickle it..then give it a long lick back to the top
I love to see it become so big and hard
As hard as rock…so hard and so ready
When it’s all wet nicely, I will pushed a little bit…
Only the head…to my mouth..rubbing and feeling it
In my lips..hmm love that a lot
I love the smell of it….I love to rub it in my …
I love the sound he made, the moan, and the urgency to push it all
Inside my mouth
when I feel I have enough playing, then I’ll pushed it slowly
To my mouth..all the way in if I can
I love to feel how hard it is inside my mouth
Sucking it up and down while circling my tongue inside
I love when he hold my head or grab my hair and fuck my mouth
Pushed it deep
Stroke it with my hand as I suck it nice and slow
Or hard, deep and fast
I love to see it… so hard in my hand
i can see a little pre- cum and I lick it clean..
I can’t stop, I won’t stop….
let him choose to cum inside my mouth or to stop me
So he can fuck me
Whichever he chose..my mouth will back to it after…

Ps. im really curious… I can’t really answer it myself cuz I met like only 2 guys so far (yeah I know im slow haha), but just a couple of questions for the guys :

1. how does it feel after you guys ? It is very sensitive or is it ok to put it back to the mouth? Not for another blow job but like resting inside the mouth, like licking or very gently suck…is it ok? or you just want your cock to be left alone? I know every guy difference… but would love to know for future preference lol…

2. Is it weird to have a mouth sucking it on and off for a long long time? now and then? Here and there? Or is it ok? Is cock will become numb or sore?? Because me, for example, when I just cum , I just want my clit to be left alone as its sooo sensitive.

Well…. not much practice or experience for for the last many of years…so it's like a refresher course hahaha… please advise , give tips..anything…I would love to understand more about one of my fave thing to play

thanks...
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No sunshine
Posted:May 5, 2019 12:07 am
Last Updated:May 9, 2019 12:59 am
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I once very excited to see sunshine
it cheers up my everyday
wherever I am, I always waiting
for it to shine my day.
but things changed...
from what I think its worth
become something not worth fighting
so I step back, I left
I shutting down
but sunshine keep haunting me
I try to avoid it but it always stays in
my shadow..
leave me wondering how to stop it.
I'm standing on my own
I don't need sunshine to light up my day
I have my own candle that help me
to move one step ahead...
stop haunting me sunshine...
your light was way too bright..
it hurt my eyes.
dont keep following me,
my shadow means nothing.
it's better to light millions of other people's shadow..
others that really need your light.
but not me.... never for me.
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quite a good picture?
Posted:May 3, 2019 12:40 am
Last Updated:May 16, 2019 12:08 am
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ok, I'm actually learning how to put picture in this blog so this is the first try ...

I love taking picture of myself in sexy pose... but not because I'm that attractive lol, but because I always think that I looked better in picture than in real life haha.

this picture, for example, I was doing some yoga in my bedroom... ok, fine, naked yoga... and I feel horny all of a sudden (which is totally common!!) so I took my iPhone and started to pose and play with myself at the same time. I think it's quite a good picture considering that I'm sweating all over....

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For you
Posted:May 1, 2019 10:28 am
Last Updated:May 10, 2019 3:28 pm
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My body longing
For you
Remember those times
When you sat in the chair
and I jumped to sit
on your lap
asking for a deep hot kisses
I can feel your hands
Wandering in my body
Feel me up
Remember those times
Where our body
Tangled
All nights
Like theres nothing
To stop us
Caress each other
Your hands always there
playing with my tits
squeezing my ass
rubbing my clit
Or fingering me
My body longing
For you
Those times when
I can’t stop sucking you
When your smell turn me on
Even more
It’s craving,
Need to be fed,
Need to be satisfied..
longing
To be touched
longing to
Feel you in me
Can’t stop thinking
all those non stop
foreplay
driving me crazy
When you finally
entered me..
the first thrust ..
Always the most mind blowing
Feeling your cock pushed
All the way in,
those feelings
The pleasure is irreplaceable
We lost in our own world
Of passion..
oh how my body longing
For it now….
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The community...
Posted:Apr 28, 2019 9:45 am
Last Updated:May 2, 2019 10:06 am
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Someone told me last week he never met anyone worse than him in terms of online all the time in social platform aka here haha... I didnt agree of course, I'm online here in TSDates maybe once a day or twice. is it bad? lol
It's my 3rd month here... I can't believe how time flies. my first month was ok..still trying to adjust. but I started to get reminded again why I like it a lot online in this site.

I guess it's all began in 2006...(man, ages ago lo) I had different profile back then..and if anyone remember...TSDates didnt have 'flirt', it was 'wink' haha. I started to realise the longer I'm on this site, it's not all the time about finding sex anymore, it's more about the community. I love coming home from work and open my blogs and unload whats in my mind. or response to someones articles or asking advice about sex. for someone like me, think about sex all the time, this was the perfect place.
I was active for couple of years...met some of very special men which become friends until now. I close my account when I moved.

So fast forward to 2019, I didnt get feeling until recently...im gonna stop my membership actually but I forgot and they bloody renew it lol. so I'm thinking...ok what the heck, lets continue. I'm glad tho...it starting to feel like home lol. no it doesn't, but I do feel like I'm in the right place with the people have same interest with me.

I really love to talk about sex openly like some of you might know already. not sure why but my brain seems going to direction all the time lol. and it's great cuz everyone is here for same reason. And I do like writing… sometimes about sex, sometimes about the life, or whatever in my mind I need to spill.
so yeah, I don’t think it’s bad, being online here. Just couple days ago, a friend broadcast here like all day. Not at all about sex but more to chat, or eating, or just fooling around in front of cam…and thats awesome. thanks to him for accompany me like all morning when I can't sleep... that's really cool.

so...maybe thats true what they said...that TSDates is more to a women's playground than men's?? well, Anyway, I’ll be here for a while. so yeah, you gonna see me online..often
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MFM, FMF, 4SUM
Posted:Apr 24, 2019 2:10 am
Last Updated:May 6, 2019 11:20 am
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let tell you a story...

in my 20's I met this very special man from TSDates, he ended up become my very best friend with benefit for years and years. we still friends until today, but no more benefit since we're not in the same country anymore lol.
anyway, I was still kinda naive
at time (maybe lol) and he taught me everything I need to know about sex. not only he taught me how to please a man, and explore our sexuality, he also taught me everything about being naughty.

we had sex in every possible places..you name it, I done it. Playing dress-up, role-play, sexy pictures. he's also the one I experience with for MFM and FMF and 4sum.

so in my wild days...I love to share my guy to my best friends lol (yeah I know crazy) ...so this couple of times, I asked her (2 different girls in 2 different occasion) to join us and it was an amazing experience. I love it. FMF for me is sexy, i love kissing girls. girls lips is so soft, and I love to hear a little soft moan when we kissed. I always curious though if bisexual, but experience made realise I'm not ,even though I like kissing girls.

MFM for is being greedy lol. done it couple of times but I never done it where they fuck my pussy and my ass ...(not really fan of anal). but I kinda love the idea of being used by 2 guys the same time. I still remember when one guy fuck me hard from behind while pulling my hair while other guys fucking my mouth.. I had a very intense orgasm. I like to feel 2 pairs of hands all around my body, it's double pleasure. (in one occasion, guess who's the 2 guys with?? lol...ask )

While 4 sum, done it once with same guy...it's quite the experience. we swap partners too but I think the more people involve in sex... its not really about pleasure anymore, its more about fun, experience, least for .

I love experimenting and exploring sexuality...
so you see, for me, something like MFM, FMF, orgy or whatever sum, needs to be done with someone you trust. or at least someone you know. you need to feel comfortable, relax. I known this guys for long time before he asked me if I wanted to try 3sum, on which case, I already trust him. and I had great experience with those.

now you guys know the reason I will not respond to couples, or offers for 3sum or whatever sum. sorry for but I really need to stated this because I do got lotsss of message from couples. not gonna do it with stranger.

After got from relationship, I feel like I need to start from the beginning.. which is to find a fuck buddy... then...who knows...let's see...
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orgasm
Posted:Apr 20, 2019 12:57 am
Last Updated:May 3, 2019 6:57 am
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that very moment..
when I knew it was there
started building up...
can feel the tingling...
in my pussy
spreading to my whole body
that very moment when I started
to lose control
try not to hold my breath
everything stop for a second
when it hit me....
Im floating ..
blank..
my brain stop thinking..
to feel the non stop pleasure that
hit me like the biggest wave...
my body try to absorb all of it
I was in different world for a second...
then Im back to earth...
catch my breath back...
then I'm ready for another ride
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the mission...
Posted:Apr 15, 2019 9:02 am
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2019 8:18 am
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I forgot all of this.... this whole of 'how I used to love sex so much'...it got me thinking today, that I've been so lost in the past relationship and I didn't even realise it.

I forgot how great kisses can made me wet instantly

I forgot how nice it feels when his hands feeling inch by inch of my naked body
made me lose control...
the laugh in between, the sex discussion..

I forgot how good it was having the privilege to be down there licking and sucking anytime I want for as long as I want....

I forgot how amazing it was to be able to have sex non stop for hours, all night long...lots of lots of cums, like nothing else matters. it's like my body just be awaken again after all this years.

when I sign up here, again, after being single for couple of month trying to mend the broken heart, I have one mission, is to find out if my body still have that ability... the ability to produce or provide pleasure which I thought was gone years ago....

glad to know that I was wrong
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That kiss..
Posted:Mar 31, 2019 5:46 am
Last Updated:Apr 10, 2019 11:26 pm
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do you ever had a kiss like that
the kiss that when his lips touches yours
you started losing control
of who you are...
you feel weak in the knees,
your pussy get wet fast..
and when the kiss getting deeper
and hotter...
and you can taste a bit of whiskey
everything seems floating...
you're on a high
let out a soft moan
you just wanting more and more of that kiss
feeling each other's tongue
the taste, the feeling...
the passion...
It just never enough
that kiss...
oh that kiss....
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