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Shhhhh Don't tell!
Posted:Jun 9, 2019 11:06 pm
Last Updated:Oct 10, 2019 1:10 pm

I've been chatting with a guy on this site for about two years, off and on. Very easy to talk to...he listens to my rants about stuff on here and in real life, actually tries to see things from my point of view, asks questions and supports whatever decisions I make...and I do the same for him. He chats and plays with others on the site, as do I...neither of us has but a few we interact with on a regular basis. But, of all our site friends, he and I are the only two that are actually local to each other. About three months ago, we slipped very easily into sensual, sexy, cyber sex. My private Escape room on the site got a lot of use lol
Because we've been chatting for so long, I trust he knows all about my family's recently purchased raw land in the area and knew that I was going camping with one family member this weekend. I took a deep breath and a big plunge into the deep end of the pool and finally decided to invite him to a real life meeting. He said he wasn't sure he would have time as he had to attend a good friend's wedding but would do everything he could to make it happen.
Since the property is owned jointly by myself and 4 siblings, we do have a few of them is that any visitors need to be approved by everyone else. Of course, this was more in reference to long term visitors. There is one sibling who is bringing home every Tom, Dick and Harry at the local pub these days lol Fine for her own apt but not so cool for jointly owned property.
So I did tell my sibling I was camping with that I might have a visitor....for the evening My sis and her husband were scheduled to leave Saturday evening; I planned on staying through late on Sunday when my was going to pick up.
But I really didn't expect Eric to show up.
My sister and her husband were just about packed up, ready to head out about 8pm when we heard and then saw a beat up truck coming down the long gravel road into the property. Occurred to that I didn't know what kind of vehicle Eric drove lol
He looked the same in real life as I'd seen him on cam so many times...but still, different. Felt like a damn lmao and I could see by his big grin that he was probably feeling the same way.
Introductions were made though I only introduced him as a buddy as no one in my family knows about am not ashamed for being here. I just value the relationship I have with all my 7 siblings and they would not understand....and that's ok. They are who they are; I am who I am. Eric knows this and agrees.
He assured my sister and her very protective husband that he was only able to stay a couple of hours...said he'd been up since 4am, getting ready for this wedding of his best friend.
So they left and the quiet settled around the meadow and the woods. I'd started a fire a couple of hours earlier so we sat around it, stretched out in lounging camp chairs, side by side....finally able to hold hands in real life. And kiss...casual at first cuz damn, he is a gentleman...something I had always liked about him. He had always made sure he knew how he felt and accepted how I felt, even if it didn't match his...and he still stuck around lol

After about half an hour, he said he had a surprise in his truck so he got up...I watched his tall, broad figure in his jeans and tee shirt lumber over to his truck. He brought back a paper it was all the stuff to make s'mores. I just laughed so hard....I always talked about how you had to have s'mores when you went camping. So we roasted marshmallows over the fire until they were dripping off the sticks, smushed them between two graham crackers with a piece of chocolate inside...and it was the ooey, gooey marshmallows that started it all lol Lauged, swiped dripping marshmallow off each other's chins, kissed can imagine what happened next.

We have built a few 'sleeping shacks' on the property until the big main community lodge is built....x rooms, with a door, windows, shed roof and a platform bed with a foam mattress on it.

I told him I heard what he'd said about needing to get some sleep after a long day,...and he said not any more. It was raining lightly out so we dashed out from the cover of the canopy we'd been (covers the picnic tables and big bbq grill) and made it safely to the closest sleep shack...which is the nicest one...has french doors instead of just a plain front door...turns , he likes the cool, fresh, clean country air as much as I do so we opened the french doors and left them open...the cool air on our skin was invigorating.
not saying it was porn perfect lol But we didn't take too long before we got very comfortable with each other and it was like we'd known each other for a long time.
He has a breast fetish....took my breath away, literally. I had not had a guy attention to like that in a long, long time....real life or cyber. And I knew what he enjoyed had been fun in cyber but real words can describe it. And yeah, I took his breath away a few times too.

It was the middle of the night by the time we finally settled down to rest our eyes and our bodies...the french doors were still open, could hear the pattering of the rain on the tin roof and on the leaves of the bushes and trees outside the doors...and we were suddenly quite chilled....there were no sleeping bags or blankets in the sleep shack....I knew there were some in the trailer parked by the main picnic we put on our shoes....just our shoes lol grabbed the lantern and dashed through the light rain to the trailer...was chilly but actually felt good on the skin....we grabbed a couple of sleeping bags and dashed back to the sleep shack. We snuggled the sleeping bags until we were again...and then, we sudennly weren't so tired lol made slow, , sexy, sensual love...exploring each other just like we had in cyber...we finally drifted off to sleep close to dawn...with shared body warmth.
One of my favorite fantasies is 'breakfast sausage' and yes, I woke him up, indulging in that fantasy. Never, ever had that opportunity i've led a fairly quiet sex life, as you can tell.
There's more to the story but you get the idea....I am smiling even now as I type all this up. I told him I wanted to casually blog about our time together....always have said, if something makes you happy, shout it from the rooftops for everyone to hear...and he enthusiastically agreed. He is great at cyber sex....the best I've ever had...but other than that, his writing sucks so he's leaving it up to me to share this.
Raising my glass of bourbon and 7...cheers, Eric, thank you for a memorable time.
Now that we've broken the ice, we are already talking about our next meet and greet.
Camping has taken on a whole new light lol
Yet another fake blog about fake profiles
Posted:May 25, 2019 6:43 am
Last Updated:Oct 10, 2019 1:10 pm

An acquaintance of mine on this site recently wrote a blog about how much he hates fake profiles. He was very passionate about how he felt. He stated that he did not care so much that one person has multiple profiles...and it is not against site rules to have multiple profiles, as long as the information in each profile is accurate. His passionate pet peeve was when someone claimed that the fake pics in the profiles were of them when, in fact, the pics were stolen from one of many sites on the net where the same pic was posted. He stated very passionately that that was the line in the sand for him.

So he has a very close female friend who has multiple profiles. He stated to me that she has admitted to him that she has multiple profiles and this is a well known fact. Again, not against the rules. I won't go into the fact that each profile is different...different age, different location, many different pics...however, I did ask this acquaintance if his friend had told him whether or not all the pics on all those profiles were actually of her. Had he ever asked her? Since that was the line in the sand for him, I thought it was an appropriate thing to ask.

He told me not to contact him ever again.

So....I guess having fake pics on a fake profile are ok as long as it's a good friend...then it's a case of 'don't ask, don't tell'.

But that's not what he wrote in his blog.

Like I said...another fake blog about fake profiles.
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just some non erotic art I am working on
Posted:Apr 26, 2019 2:31 am
Last Updated:Nov 20, 2019 11:39 pm
chateau de Lesches

My little cabin in the woods...
Posted:Jan 31, 2019 5:14 pm
Last Updated:Oct 10, 2019 1:11 pm

About a year ago, I signed an agreement with four of my siblings to purchase a 15 acre parcel of undeveloped land not too far from where I currently live.

Our dream has been to build a main Lodge with a community sized kitchen, couple bathrooms and a huge open space in the Lodge for the whole family to meet...I have 7 siblings and when we all gather a couple times a year, we've always rented group camp sites or a big community building that is big enough for all of us to visit and have fun. This Lodge and the 15 acres would be our permanent family gathering space.
The other part of our dream was to be able to build individual small retirement homes on the property, sharing the utilities.
I am on a limited income so I opted to add a 600 square foot studio space onto one end of the Lodge as my 'cabin in the woods'. I would use the community room's kitchen and bathroom.
The 15 acres is in the shape of a T with the bottom of the T being an open 5 acre meadow and the top of the T is in light woods.
It is quite wet there during the winter...several north/south canals have been dug across the property to divert standing water to a creek on the south side of the property, which flows into a river not far away. There is one area of the lightly wooded area that is knee-deep in standing water during the winter months.
We have already been paying monthly on not only the property payment but we've also gotten the electrical installed and the well done.

We had someone do an environmental study as part of the septic design system and she declared the place we'd designated to build the Lodge (the front 5 acre meadow) was not a wetland. We were looking at starting to build the Lodge this coming summer. I was hoping to move into my space in about a year.

We have just learned that the person who did the environmental study did it at the wrong time of the year to be valid. It has to be done in late February or March....the wettest time of the year in that area. She did her study last May. This study is important as it determines if the area is a wetland and therefore unbuildable.
A re-inspection done two weeks ago, of the holes she had dug for the study, showed they are now full of water so everything has been halted.

We have a meeting now for the first week of March to re-inspect. Someone from the state will go out to the property between now and then and dig more test holes, in different areas of the siblings are saying he just needs to dig more test holes in the meadow area....I am trying to get them to ask him to also dig test holes in the lightly wooded area, close enough to the already-installed electrical pole and well to be used by a building but not so close as to be a problem for those utilities. Just in case all the new test holes in the meadow are full of water and the meadow is designated a wetlands.

Because if we don't have him dig the extra holes in the wooded area now so that they can also be inspected at this meeting in March, we will have to wait another year to start this process over again...the test holes must be inspected only during late February and March.

Meanwhile, my own housing situation is unclear. I live with my and his wife. Because of a lot of circumstances, they are fairly certain they will have to sell this house...soon. They are looking at jobs and schools (my in law is taking classes at Seattle U and wants to go to law school) out of state.

I was really counting on being able to move into my little cabin the woods in a year....and now that may not happen.
I have a housing voucher that expires in two would allow me to move into my own apartment (or house) and get help with the rent so that I could live on my income. But if I don't use it in two months, it goes away, permanently.

The cards have been shuffled and then thrown up in the air...and there they all are, suspended in mid air....and I must tell myself to just breathe...
The 'bro code'
Posted:Jan 3, 2019 1:09 pm
Last Updated:Jan 8, 2019 9:42 am

Yeah I know, that sounds a little silly's kind of a serious thing....friends have been lost (hopefully temporarily) because of a lack of attention to or consideration for the 'bro code'.
I am just venting here. I am not being told what to do or what to think by anyone...anyone who knows me even slightly, knows that's like mixing oil and water...ain't gonna happen but...they use it all the time if they don't like what I am saying. Oh well.
I prefer to be a fact based person. I don't go by what just one person tells me. I ask questions to anyone who might have information that will shed light on a given subject.
The 'bro code' respecting a good friend on the site, just as you would in real life.
Case in point:
During the World Series...end of October, 2018, a dozen or more chatters on the site see a friend of theirs...I will call her Alice but that's not her name or handle...Alice states in several public chat rooms how very much in love she is with her guy on the site..I will call him Bob.....they are exclusive and she says Bob is 'the one', she is totally dedicated to him, etc.

Dec 7, 2018, a little over a month later.....I...and at least a dozen others....see Bob on the site with Alice in a private group chat room party setting. It's a brief visit by Alice but they are together.

Dec 31, 2018...two and a half weeks later at a NYE party in that same room...Bob and Alice are there, as well as 15 or 20 others enjoying the party. Another guy who I will call Ted is heavily flirting with Alice and she is flirting back while also chatting with Bob.
Important to note here: Bob and Ted are supposedly good buddies on the site.. A close bond.
I am dj'g the music for the party and Bob asks me to play a special song for a dance with Alice. His girl, as far as we knew. So I started playing the song. Alice does not start dancing to the romantic music with Bob. About 2/3 of the way through the song, Alice gets up on the bar counter with a bottle of booze and starts dancing, solo, laughing.

Then Ted asks me to play a song, so I do, and Ted and Alice proceed to heavily flirt and dance....close to starting a sexy scene together as they dance....right infront of Bob ...and everyone else in the room. Bob was so shocked at this display of disrespect towards him that he left the party and even logged off the site entirely.

As far as any of us knew, Bob and Alice had been an exclusive couple. She had proclaimed her love for him not even two months earlier and we'd seen them together just two and a half weeks earlier. Yes, it's a sex site and yes, people switch partners like they change their underwear. But when two ppl agree to be exclusive, it's serious. it was quite obvious to all of us, seeing this action taking place in the room, that, at some point in time, the relationship between Bob and Alice had ended. But we'd seen them together just two and a half weeks earlier.

As some of us quietly posted our discontent with what Alice and Ted were doing in the room, they started to get the idea that we weren't very happy at all. The two of them became angry at us, defensive; they saw absolutely nothing wrong with what they were doing and their posts in the room reflected this.

It wasn't just me who was shocked at this. A dozen of the regulars in the room were so angry at this disrespect being shown for Bob that we met in a private room to talk about it. We all understood that changes in 'relationships' on this site happens daily, hourly even lol That is not what angered us. It was the total lack of respect that Ted and Alice had shown for Bob...someone Alice had declared only two months earlier to be her 'one and only'. Especially given the fact that Bob and Ted were supposedly good friends,. The respectful thing for them to have done was to leave the party and start their playing privately.

In the private group rooms, we can choose to instantly ban people from the room who violate the rules of the room.
After much discussion and soul searching, we all decided that this disrespect for a good friend and fellow room owner by someone who was supposed to be a friend and by a girl who had been exclusive with him warranted banning from the room. We could not sit by and do nothing; that would send the message that we felt what they did was just fine. What they did was just about the worst thing two people can do to someone else on this site. And so we banned them.

The next day, Alice created a thread in Ted's room, stating she and Bob had not been together 'for months' and she stated there was proof on her profile of that....she stated that anyone could check it out...she stated she changed her 'relationship status' on her profile months ago when she ended that relationship with Bob.
I went to her profile and studied it very carefully. I could not find any such notification of a change. She has chosen to hide her activity, which is her right to do. I only wanted the facts because if, indeed, she had officially ended the relationship 'months ago', it might change things. I had my doubts that she had ended it 'months ago' because just two months ago, she had openly declared her complete dedication to Bob. And we'd seen them together on Dec. 7.
I asked Ted to point me to where in her profile this proof was that she stated was available for everyone to see. Maybe I just wasn't seeing it. He did not know where it was.
After several texts back and forth, it became clear that Ted did not know if such proof existed and, more importantly, he didn't care. Despite the fact that she couldn't have ended it 'months ago' as she stated, he just didn't care and refused to pursue it. As far as he is concerned, he and Alice did nothing wrong.

So the 'bro code' got trashed. And so did many friendships. It might just be a sex site but we were all friends...and friends don't do this to friends. Even on a sex site.
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some of my fav photos I have taken
Posted:Nov 19, 2018 3:09 pm
Last Updated:Oct 29, 2019 1:07 am

Another semi sexy female sculpture
Posted:Nov 19, 2018 2:54 pm
Last Updated:Aug 7, 2019 2:57 pm
Just felt like working on a soft, pensive form. She's not done yet, lot of tweaking to do...and she will have hair

opinions please
Posted:Nov 8, 2018 3:42 pm
Last Updated:Oct 29, 2019 1:08 am
I just about finished with my 17" male warrior sculpture. I've changed his pose quite a bit from my previous blog's photos...
Today I have added his 'genitalia', a polite term for his balls and cock I have been told I sculpt my guys too well endowed so I would like people's opinion. Let me know...too big, too small? Thanks!

what I'm working on...
Posted:Oct 27, 2018 9:34 am
Last Updated:Aug 13, 2019 10:58 am
Largest sculpture so far...he's 17" tall...still in the rough stages...I think he will be holding onto the long hair of a severed head in his left hand, holding a sword in his right hand, with the tip down to the ground...might put him on a mound of skulls...thinking about wings but not sure about that. Haven't decided about clothing or armor but...he will definitely be anatomically correct even if covered up with a loin cloth...gotta get my kicks in somehow!
Next might be a matching female warrior

a new piece of art
Posted:Aug 27, 2018 7:52 am
Last Updated:Oct 29, 2019 1:13 am
I am working on a 16" x 20" relief tile, using the beautiful art of Allen Williams...the inspiration drawing is called 'The Clearing' and is special to me as I live in the pacific northwest. Here is his drawing:

And here is what I've done so far....lots more work to do...the headpiece is just roughed in, the background trees need to be done and lots of smoothing of her skin.

Dancing in the Rain
Posted:Aug 22, 2018 7:22 pm
Last Updated:Nov 20, 2018 6:26 am

I got called a racist in a public chat room today because I asked a guy if he danced in the rain.
Back up a couple of posts in the room:

Someone greeted me, asked how my day had been and I replied that I wish it would rain.
Someone else responded to my post, stating he had been in and out of heavy rainfalls all day. So I asked this someone else if he had danced in the rain. Visions of Gene Kelly in the movie Dancing In The Rain came to mind.
His response surprised the hell out of me.
He stated that I had stooped to a new low with that racial slur.

Now this is a guy I had met in the chat room two days earlier. We had a nice, short visit that day, I sent him a friend request, and he accepted with a warm thank you. The next day, he was talking politics in the chat room when I came in. I disagreed with what he was saying so I politely posted a very short response, ending it with 'imo' as I always do. Suffice it to say that within a few minutes, because I disagreed with his opinion, he was chastising me for butting into the conversation in the first place. I told him I respected his right to his opinion and stated I was also entitled to my opinion. At that point, I was not having any fun so I left the room and went to another room to visit with friends.

That brings us to today and his statement to me about the racial slur. I posted that I had no idea what he meant by a racial slur from me and asked where he got that?
He posted he meant the Dance in the Rain question to him, then stated he was Native American.
The light went on. I actually did not know this person was Native American and, even if I did, I was humming 'Singing in the Rain' when I made the post. So I posted that I was caucasian and I danced in the rain and that I did not consider my comment to be a racial slur, imo
He posted how bad it was when someone disagrees with you and then finds every opportunity to trash you.

Wow. Just kinda blew me away with his hate towards me. And all because I disagreed with him politically. Even though I was polite, respectful of his opinions, nice in my wording of my disagreements....people who know me, know that I am that way, even when being bashed by harassers.

I chose to leave the room at that point. I've never thought the public chat rooms were the place to fight. However, soon I went back, knowing if he started in on me again, I could just put him on ignore. I have friends in that room and did want to visit with them.

This kind of instant hate seems to be all too prevalent these day.
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