TUG A WAR
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Posted:Nov 23, 2006 8:56 am
Last Updated:Nov 28, 2006 8:24 am
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Ready for a stuffing
he laid her on the table
so white clean and bare.
His forehead wet
with beads of sweat.
He rubbed here and there.
He touched her neck.
And then her breasts.
Then drooling, touched her thigh.
This bird was wet and all was set,
he gave a joyous cry !!!
The hole was wide, he looked inside
All was dark and murky
He rubbed his hands and stretched his arms
and then he
stuffed this turkey.
I know how corny but it was all I could find.
I wanna give a shout out to all those people who might be feeling like me, no Thanksgiving spirit this holiday. It is causing such a major tug of war within side, I have so much to be thankful for, but my trials seem to be over shadowing them. Don't ya hate when you feel guilty for falling short?? I am the one who always has the holiday spirit around here and with my mood this year am I not setting a good example gotta straightin up after I get off here I suppose..
But ya know I am tired of pretending all is well when its not. So I decided to at least be honest on here. I can't believe I feel this way but I do. Usually when I start feeling this way I count my blessings and cheer up but its just not happening this year.. Hey I found one thing, time, at least there's next year, maybe.
Hugs from Loves
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Dirty Little Secret
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Posted:Nov 22, 2006 8:28 am
Last Updated:Aug 5, 2010 8:43 am
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Wanna know what my dirty little secret is??
I doubt if anyone really does, but it's my ability to think I have something squared away, figured out, my plan in place then realize that I am still uncertain. My dang indecisiveness 
People say I am afraid of change (wondering lately if they are right) I don't see it that way,, I am afraid of making the wrong decision, so I weight it all out over and over and never seem to make up my mind... I am getting on my own nerves.... UUUGGGHHHH.
I hate feeling one day one way, then another way the next, for example just a few days back I made a comment that I was glad that I was free from feeling like I had to live up to the worlds expectation of beauty, then I look into the mirror and go right back into my debate if I should get plastic surgery , this is just one example of it.
Things that I once thought I had figured out, decisions that made the world ,my life make sense to me just don't seem to make much sense to me since I turned forty,
Am I having a midlife crisis??? What the heck is a midlife crisis anyways??
Do you have a dirty little secret about yourself you need to get off your chest?? Come on tell me, I'll never judge.. I'll never tell 
Hugs from Loves
ps- my religious Mom tells me I need a good wise man to help me, do you think she is right?? 
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Make me Beautiful
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Posted:Nov 21, 2006 10:29 am
Last Updated:Nov 27, 2006 8:14 am
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Like anyone else, there are day I feel beautiful and days I don't and when I don't I do something about it.
Cheryl Tiegs
Since I turned forty last month I must admit I do not feel "as" beautiful as I once did.
Now time has been pretty good to me but there are a couple of areas that I wish Mr. time coulda just passed by 
Feeling this way bothers me, I never truly expected to react to turning 40 this way. I am not saying I have no self love left I do. Just like in the quote when I didn't feel beautiful I did something to make myself. These days it just isn't working.
These "unsatisfactory spots" can not be hidden or exercised away. I am thinking of something I have been very opposed to, plastic surgery.....
Years ago I was offered a breast reduction and lift due to my back problems but Mr.Sir was very opposed to it. I myself was reluctant as well, I feared loosing sensitivity in them : so I declined. Now I am reconsidering this and an eye lift...
Now am I am sure I might hit on a sensitive subject here but I have been trying to figure out why this has become so important to me, is it because everytime I catch my man looking at someone else they are younger, or when he checks out pics on line its never anyone who looks like me even though he has told me that he still finds me very sexy and attractive??? Or is it my fight to hang onto my youth?? Now I know I have shoulder pain and problay need to reduce my breasts but why now??
I am definitely not hurrying into any decisions here, if I do it it will have to be completely for myself?? do you guys think doing it partially to be alittle more attractive for your man is such a bad thing?
Have you ever considered any type of plastic surgery?? I hear men are doing it in records numbers are you one of them?? If so, what do you have done??
Hugs from Loves
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Paintball Hell
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Posted:Nov 19, 2006 11:13 am
Last Updated:Aug 20, 2009 10:52 am
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Well
I woke up to early this fine sunday morning so I went back to bed for a few, maybe I shoulda just stayed there..
I awoke to my home looking like a hurricane had went thru it, actually it was just my two boys. There were clothes, dishes, spilled milk, dvd cases everywhere, now mind you I can handle this, it happens frequently. But what has me so worked up is the fact that Mr.Sir has purchased my boys paint ball guns !!!!!!
Yes paint ball guns!!!!
I have never been in complete agreement on this but I have been accused of babying my boys and where we have moved it seems most their ages have at least a paint ball gun or BB gun, so I said go ahead but I'm not in agreement and have no responsibility for what happens.....
Yeah right, I knew it would happen.
It seems Mr.Sir gave them permission to use the dang things this morning even though he had to work. So not 10 minutes after I awoke before my first cup of java we headed outside and started
what seemed like WW3,
Oh my goodness they sound so real and you shoulda heard the nearby dogs going nuts. POP POP POP it took me awhile not to be startled with each shot fired. I am surprised the cops didn't show up it sounded like a real shoot out. I was so embarrassed here it is Sunday morning and my are blowing up the backyard.
I do admit beside the noise and the mess (i'll get to that)I did smile alittle they seemed to love every minute of it, until of course one of em got hit right in his manhood I couldn't believe it, all the gear and extra padding we didn't think of putting on cups  I was laughing but he sure wasn't. So of course he calls dirty hit and unloads his gun on my other (his younger bro) I hated it. Wonder if that was normal. Seeing then lash out in violence on one another, or is this just a man thing that I don't get????
Now on to the mess!!!!!!
Where we live we have sliding doors that open up to our acre backyard we have two dogs, its been raining and they want to come in so as soon as the doors open the coming running in. They are filthy with mud all over their paws !!!!! There goes my light tan carpet and sparkling tile floors !!!!!!! They run all over the house jump in the beds and all over the furniture !!!!!!
I screaming hysterically Out Out!!! of course they are scared to death of me, so they continue to run all over the place. I finally get ah old of their collars and drag them back out and start to clean up the mess, when all be dang I hear the door start to open, (the boys need to reload) I scream don't let the dogs in , $-o close call.
I go back to cleaning up the mud off the kitchen floor.
Dang it I hear it again, but this time the dogs are so worked up over all the noise they push pass my boys and head straight for under the dining room table, well that's not to bad I think but hold on, in my hurry to clean my kitchen I have forgotten to check to see if they dropped any paint balls when they reloaded last time floor. What happened next was both hilarious and infuriating.
There on top of the table was an open bucket of 2,000 paint ball!!!!! I panic I can see it all happening  I grab for their collars, they fight hard, they hit the bottom of the table, then it happens !!!! they hit it again even harder, hard enough to knock off the bucket and 2,000 paint balls fall over the floor  mind you my boys are stupid, instead of staying back they run over to help,, stepping all over the paint balls, here I am hollering STOP!!!! GET BACK!!!! but they don't pay any attention, I see paint balls being smashed all over my beautiful new carpet!!!!!
Finally after I scream GET BACK or I'm gonna beat your A$$, they finally listen and then realize what was going on, all they can do is laugh...
I manage to get my dogs out from under the table, they are very curious as to whats over the floor they the put their noses in it, so now they have to be bathed too!!!!
Everything is such a mess
Not to mention how my backyard now looks, yellow and orange blobs all over my house, playhouse, barn EVERYWHERE.
Guess who is going to have to clean this all up, on my Sunday off... Yep me, and even after I said no to the dang things in the first place..
Sure I'll make the boys help, but ladies you know how that will go, more of a hinder than a help
Well my Bit#@ is now over....
Maybe someone will have a good laugh on me
One good thing though it's Sunday and that means FOOTBALL !!!!!!specially the Colts game, I wanna see if they can make it TEN !!!!!
#####  GO COLTS ########
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What the HECK
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Posted:Nov 19, 2006 4:34 am
Last Updated:Apr 23, 2007 10:05 am
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I have only been back a couple of days and I am already having trouble with this acct.
My pics have disappeared and profile questions have been changed and I have a temp file that I can not delete....
Did I read right that the blogs had been hacked while I was gone??
Has anyone else used spell check and it acted funky???
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Sunday!!!!!!!!!
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Posted:Nov 19, 2006 3:35 am
Last Updated:Jun 20, 2008 6:51 am
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Wow It's early Sunday morning and I can't believe I am awake already...
Morning World
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Not another BO-HO blog :)
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Posted:Nov 17, 2006 10:46 am
Last Updated:Aug 20, 2009 10:54 am
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There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to find the ways in which you yourself have altered.
Nelson Mandela (A Long Walk to Freedom)
Hang in there with me guys it might start out a BO-HO blog but it ain't gonna stay that way!!
Wow I truly can't believe I made a decision to return here. I guess my need to express myself and share what life, love has shown me has gotten the best of me. I thought of going elsewhere but decided to return here because of the freedom you have here to express the whole of your humanity.
Some of you may remember my struggles, others will have no clue. When I left a few months back I was in the process of buying a house and moving to a whole new environment.
Well we made it out here.
On one hand it is so peaceful and beautiful out there, I have fallen in love with it.
While on the other hand it can seem like I am on a deserted island alone with no escape.
I knew it was going to be an adjustment for all of us and so far it has worked out well for my and finally my husband feels like he has something to show for all his hard work.
But in all honesty I think I put to much hope in it. You know a fresh start for me and my family especially my marriage, well I was wrong when it comes to my marriage, it's never been worse.
I have kept my emotional distance waiting for signs that he was ready to work on things but it has never come. I am working on accepting that it never is gonna happen. You know when I type that it still cuts like a knife, but I'm not bleeding to death,
like I thought I would.
So now I am searching, what for I am not sure, maybe more understanding of men and how to relate to them, who knows. A male friend definitely. It's prob lay like everyone has said you'll know what you're looking for when you find it.
I have been married 16 years, it suits me too. I am really struggling on how to live unattached, I don't like it.
Thanks for stopping by.
Peace2u,
Loves
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Paper in Fire
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Posted:Nov 16, 2006 11:20 am
Last Updated:Aug 20, 2009 10:55 am
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I know how original, but after filling out everything to start this membership I am outta time for today.
I'd like to let everyone know that I have had a profile and blog before but it was awhile back. I have missed it so I have decided to return. If you want take a guess feel free but I doubt if anyone remebers me.
Please check back in over the next couple of days when I have more time to post to be more creative , but for now, this is a glimpse into my world.
She had a dream,and boy, it was good one.
So she chased after her dream with much desire
But when she got to close to her expectations
Well, the dream burned up like paper in fire...
If you are a John Cougar Mellencamp you know the rest. This is one of my favorite songs of all time, thanks for stopping by and I hope you come back.
Peace,
Loveslilies
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