Sometimes....  

secret_lade 47F
14110 posts
8/22/2021 4:43 pm
Sometimes....

Sometimes I have those days where I feel small and insignificant.

Today was one of those days.

I decided to trek out and enjoy the sunshine while we still had it and found myself in TC doing some shopping.

I didn't really buy much....

I don't actually need anything.

But I found myself at the book store browsing for what seemed like hours....

Until I found this.



And it was at that precise moment that I knew....

I had to have this planner.

Not so much to plan my day, necessarily, but to chronicle those moments when I believed I could so I fucking did!

That way, on days like today, when I feel as though I'm invisible to the world, I can look back on those moments and know.... that I am not.

secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/27/2021 9:51 pm

    Quoting HermanG67:
    and I hope it helps you realize how important your presence IS
Today I was getting in my car to leave for work and one of the tenants in one of the other buildings was out walking her dog. She said to me "You always look so nice and organized and well put together. I just wanted to tell you that." I can honestly say I've never seen this woman before in my life, but somehow she'd seen me often. I immediately thought of this post, and the feelings I'd been feeling when I wrote it.... and validated a lot of the comments I'd received. I am noticed, even when I don't feel that I am.


HermanG67 54M
8462 posts
8/25/2021 5:42 pm

and I hope it helps you realize how important your presence IS


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/25/2021 2:18 am

    Quoting justskin1:
    Looks like a great book for you to write. No secret_lade you are not invisible. You are noted here every day whether you post or not and no doubt you are seen wherever you go. You affect many people every day and often for the the good.
    I no longer think in terms of my purpose in the grand scheme of things. I just concentrate on how I affect the people around me.
I should be focusing more on how I affect the people around me.... I never really think about it in those terms. Lately, I haven't really cared whether or not I've been a good person, I've just been focusing on getting myself through the day without clawing someone's eyes out. I need to get back to being my old self.... The pre-boot camp self that became self absorbed with loss and worry.


CL_Love 49M/48F
385 posts
8/24/2021 6:32 am

Love this!


justskin1 69M
12826 posts
8/24/2021 5:13 am

Looks like a great book for you to write. No secret_lade you are not invisible. You are noted here every day whether you post or not and no doubt you are seen wherever you go. You affect many people every day and often for the the good.
I no longer think in terms of my purpose in the grand scheme of things. I just concentrate on how I affect the people around me.

If you see me in the real world, come say "Hi Justskin."

I always behave. Preferably not well.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/24/2021 3:00 am

    Quoting positively4you:
    You are raising kids. Helping to manage a business. Nothing insignifacant there.
You're right.... I don't really ever think of it like that. I'm just so used to organized chaos around me, when I don't have it, it feels wrong.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/24/2021 2:59 am

    Quoting TicklePlease:
    Planners make me nervous..... so much blank space!!!

    I'll be honest, it's only been in the past few years that I've relished my invisible moments... like a superpower.
I love the blank space! LOL I have a lot of crap to fill it with!

I'm still learning to relish those invisible moments... For the moment, they kind of make me feel a little sad. Probably because I've got so much on my mind these day.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/24/2021 2:56 am

    Quoting citizen4722:
    Oh yeah! This is just the job for you. Well found
I quite agree!


citizen4722 63M  
73601 posts
8/23/2021 8:24 am

Oh yeah! This is just the job for you. Well found


TicklePlease 53F  
13690 posts
8/23/2021 6:18 am

Planners make me nervous..... so much blank space!!!

I'll be honest, it's only been in the past few years that I've relished my invisible moments... like a superpower.


lindoboy100 58M  
23892 posts
8/23/2021 5:06 am

I believe you can too McLade......

Bookshops are fabulous, I can spend hours in a book shop, come out with nothing, and still have a great time.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/23/2021 3:52 am

I agree!!


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/23/2021 3:51 am

    Quoting spunkycumfun:
    You may feel invisible but you're not invisible to all around you. That planner rocks!
I think the whole reason for my journey yesterday was to find this planner. Kismet....


positively4you 72F  
4523 posts
8/23/2021 3:44 am

You are raising kids. Helping to manage a business. Nothing insignifacant there.


pagancountrygirl 64F
6233 posts
8/23/2021 3:28 am

Great reminder that Yes, You F*cking Can!

Pagan
Hmmmm....I know I left that wand around here somewhere!


spunkycumfun 61M/66F  
39533 posts
8/23/2021 2:41 am

You may feel invisible but you're not invisible to all around you. That planner rocks!


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:31 pm

    Quoting Paulxx001:
    Sounds like a plan.
    In fact, it sounds like a really good one! ❗❗😎
I'm excited to see where it takes me.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:30 pm

    Quoting lonlyforlove2:
    Young Lady, you are far form invisible, that looks nice and if it fit your mindset of the day, It may work on your future plans.. We all have a lot of plans and seems like I have to pospone a lot of things I would like to do , for one reason or another..
    Write it down just to make your memory, know you did it!!! It may make a nice book of memories, in time..
It did fit my mindset for today. I've always been a journaler, a writer, a chronicler of my days.... I'm excited to try out this idea. A quick highlight of my day.....


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:24 pm

    Quoting Bourre2020:
    Reading your post, I couldn't help but think of these words by The Mood Blues - "Dear Diary":

    Dear diary, it was cold today
    But the sun came out later
    So I went out and strolled about looking at the shops
    Didn't really see anything I liked
    So I didn't buy anything
    On the way home, I posted a letter
    Been quite a nice day
    Somebody exploded an H-bomb today
    But it wasn't anybody I knew

    Yes, my mind works in weird ways. It's almost like a Monty Python episode.
I love the Moody Blues.... One of the last concerts I went to with the Ex Husband was theirs. Thank you for sharing.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:22 pm

    Quoting staci_19702:
    Sounds like a plan came together.
    You are never small and insignificant.
Thank you.... In the grand scheme of things, it's very easy to feel this way, though.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:20 pm

I think it will be fun to look back on some of the days... Possibly remember some stuff I may have forgotten.


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:17 pm

    Quoting mc_justmc:
    You may feel like you're invisible, but I'm sure many eyes are on you every day.
Possibly.... Do you ever wonder where you for in? In the whole grand scheme of things?


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:02 pm

Seminars on how to keep the crazy in check? Perhaps....


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 11:01 pm

    Quoting  :

Omg! I loved the A-Team! Growing up, it was part of the Sunday night routine. Take a bath, watch the A-Team.


Bourre2020 58M

8/22/2021 9:36 pm

Reading your post, I couldn't help but think of these words by The Mood Blues - "Dear Diary":

Dear diary, it was cold today
But the sun came out later
So I went out and strolled about looking at the shops
Didn't really see anything I liked
So I didn't buy anything
On the way home, I posted a letter
Been quite a nice day
Somebody exploded an H-bomb today
But it wasn't anybody I knew

Yes, my mind works in weird ways. It's almost like a Monty Python episode.


boobwhisperer69 58M  
7868 posts
8/22/2021 7:03 pm

Cool!!!! You should do seminars!!!!!! HeHe


mc_justmc 61M  
6856 posts
8/22/2021 7:02 pm

You may feel like you're invisible, but I'm sure many eyes are on you every day.


topherific 59M  
5153 posts
8/22/2021 6:58 pm

brilliant!


staci_19702 51T
2548 posts
8/22/2021 6:43 pm

Sounds like a plan came together.
You are never small and insignificant.

Have a great day! 💋
Staci


lonlyforlove2 79M  
23150 posts
8/22/2021 6:08 pm

Young Lady, you are far form invisible, that looks nice and if it fit your mindset of the day, It may work on your future plans.. We all have a lot of plans and seems like I have to pospone a lot of things I would like to do , for one reason or another..
Write it down just to make your memory, know you did it!!! It may make a nice book of memories, in time..


Paulxx001 64M  
21967 posts
8/22/2021 5:52 pm

Sounds like a plan.
In fact, it sounds like a really good one! ❗❗😎


secret_lade 47F
8812 posts
8/22/2021 4:44 pm

Sometimes I have those days where I feel small and insignificant.

Today was one of those days.

I decided to trek out and enjoy the sunshine while we still had it and found myself in TC doing some shopping.

I didn't really buy much....

I don't actually need anything.

But I found myself at the book store browsing for what seemed like hours....

Until I found this.

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And it was at that precise moment that I knew....

I had to have this planner.

Not so much to plan my day, necessarily, but to chronicle those moments when I believed I could so I fucking did!

That way, on days like today, when I feel as though I'm invisible to the world, I can look back on those moments and know.... that I am not.


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