I know this may seem messed up to some people, but... I'm a white guy who wants to be a black shemale (tranny, transsexual, whatever...). I've been a life-long cross dresser. I've always known that EXTREME transformation was a big turn on for me. I occassionaly experimented with looks that made me seem more "latin / latin American." Then I decided to try looking black (and I've almost never been back). I had a lot of dark brown creme founation left over from "contouring wheels," enough to cover my face, chest and hands. I liked the results but wanted more. I began covering my entire body with dark liquid foundations with dry pigments mixed in for a richer tone. I loved the results! In short, I was addicted and felt that this was THE way I wanted to express myself... and I still do. It's messy and time consuming, so I don't get around to it a whole lot. I fantasize about it constantly. Part of the fantasy is about making this "look" more permanent. I know this will offend some people. I absolutely don't want to portray a caricature of anyone. All I can say is for some reason this persona makes me feel a lot more confident about my sexuality and gender identity. P.S. I'm pretty much a total bottom. Also, I'm not interested in sex with other t-girls.